Frustrating Goals

It seems that I am often getting frustrated with myself because of the goals I set. Both TJ and I are dreamers, but I like to say that we're realistic dreamers. We love to talk about the big ideas we have, but we don't usually start and stop things. We try to take it easy and jumping on a dream when it fits. We are also big time prayerers (feel like I can't say prayer warrior, because that's reserved for people who really are prayer warriors! We just pray often and are learning to trust in God. So yes I made up "prayerers.") When something doesn't sit well with our spirits or our interest fizzles out, we make no big deal about a dream that didn't work. 

But living on a farm, having a home, being a wife - man there are so many goals and ideas and dreams! It's so exciting! Yet I'm finding that I spread my interests wide and thin, and am now reaping a harvest of work. Yes I'm mostly referring to the outdoors. Here's my frustration: when you paint a room, it stays painted and touch-ups are rare if ever. But when you do some type of landscaping - you have to keep working at it! I did a little landscaping project. At the time I just had the idea, motivation, and the means. Now I'm seeing that I did things a little too sloppy or just didn't realize that with landscaping comes endless upkeep. Weeding, watering, weed-wacking, objects to now mow around, Miraclo Gro, RoundUp, and mulch! Oh boy and that's just the one spot. I know it's pathetic to get frustrated at something man has had to deal with since Adam, but when I finished that and began other projects, I didn't realized that these things need constant attention.

My time is spent maintaining little things! On the one hand, I love it. On the other, I'm frustrated by it. 

Lesson learned: My new goal is that I will limit my focus come spring. I will put my funds towards changing one or two things and my attention on those as well. I will do more research to make sure I am doing it correctly! I will set my expectations closer to reality - or try to.

Lesson learned, now pardon me as I go start the weed-wacker. 

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